~flying-phoenix

[Important Update 2]
I got my camera back from Canon, working in absolutely perfect condition. I also bought a new lens - the Tamron 17-50 f2.8. Its a pretty nice lens with a few drawbacks, but hell, for the price, its a steal! Also, the shoot for my project has begun and the first photograph is going to be up in a few minutes. I hope you enjoy whats to follow...

Keep your eyes on this Journal entry. the songs that will be shot and posted will be struck of the list in order to keep a check on my progress.

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[IMPORTANT UPDATE]
So, I recently discovered that my camera was putting a fugly little black spot on ALL my images. turns out the sensor needed cleaning. so while i was speculating about image quality, i also realized that the images taken using my 17-85 IS lens were crappier in quality when compared to images taken using the 18-55 kit lens (all canon). Apparently the lens needs to be re-calibrated as well! So i went down to Canon's service center the other day and had to relinquish my camera for a good 10 days. just when i was about to start shooting for my project, my camera gets taken away
I'm sorry, but i guess you guys will just have to wait a little bit longer. hopefully, i should have my first few photographs up within 2 weeks from now.
Hang in there fellas, this will be worth it

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For the last couple of months, I have been feeling out of touch with my creativity and hence, with myself. I took the
time out to reflect as to what was going on and what had brought me to where I am today. A lot has happened to me in the tiny amount of 21 years. I went further into the deep recesses of my mind, digging for some happy memories and I sure found plenty. I was happy. But that wasn't it. I was to be blessed with something more. Every significant moment of my life is associated with a song(s). All those heartbreaks, the beginning of a new relationship, the running away from home, facing the failures of ventures etc, everything has a song.

I realized that while most people have friends who they talk to in situations where emotions become overwhelming, I turned people down and chose music. Music has forever been my one solace. In Marilyn Manson's words, 'I turned to music for comfort because it does not criticize you, it does not put you down. It listens and lets you make your own meaning and there is certain sense of comfort in that'. I know exactly what that's like.

So, I decided to compile a list of songs that have special meaning for me and merge it with the concept of a theme challenge. My challenge is to be able to convey the meaning of the songs through my photographs. Now, I know that it is not right for me to declare the meaning of songs, as some people get really touchy about that. The purpose of this project is to be able to convey what these songs have meant/mean TO ME. the list of songs is as follows

Kryptonite - 3 doors down
Judith - A Perfect circle
Passive -A Perfect Circle ( Tapeworm Project cover )
show me how to live - Audioslave
Down with the Sickness - Disturbed
Bodies - Drowning Pool
Best of you - Foo Fighters
Becoming Insane - Infected Mushroom
Deeply disturbed - Infected Mushroom
Coming Undone - korn
Numb – Linkin Park
Disposable Teens - Marilyn Manson
Putting holes in the Happiness – Marilyn Manson
slutgarden - Marilyn Manson
Almost Honest - Megadeth
Hero of the Day - Metallica
Some Kind of Monster - Metallica
Unforgiven 2- metallica
Wherever i may roam - metallica
Evening Rain - Moby
Figured you out - Nickleback
where do i hide - Nickelback
Closer - Nine Inch Nails
Breed - nirvana
Control - Puddle of Mudd
Killing in the Name of - Rage Against the Machine
Freedom - Rage Against the Machine
Testify - Rage Against the Machine
1979 - Smashing Pumpkins
Million Miles away - The offspring
Ænema - Tool
40 six & 2 - Tool
Schism - Tool

I think the hardest is going to be Tool simply because there are so many dimensions to their songs. I thought I'd make fractals for Tool songs, but then I decided to stick to photographs as a means to challenge myself. I had to be very selective in picking the songs as there are so many I wanted to use. Also, not included in this list are all the techno songs that have helped uplift my mood.

Just so y'all know, this is a very special project to me. For me, its like baring my soul to the world since I'm very protective of my past and all that has happened. Recently, I've been getting a lot of shit for not 'talking' about things. This project lets me reveal everything and yet keep everything a secret.

Also, I would like to call out to people, photographers, models who would like to be a part of this project. If you have ideas, I would love to hear them. If you want to be in the photographs, I would love to have in you in them.

Wish me luck.